i didnt know how hard losing someone would be, never did i imagine that it would be so hard. i never thought that i would have to face losing someone at this age.
one of my closest friends from primary school died on saturday. ive known him more or less for the entirety of my life & now he’s gone, just like that, & i can’t comprehend how he’s just gone. i don’t want to believe it, i don’t want it to be true, i refuse to believe it. he was the most amazing lad ive ever met. so genuine, so kind, so funny, so him. he was amazing at everything he did; football, rugby, hockey, you name it he could do it. he was incredible. helping someone was never too much effort, he wouldn’t hurt a fly. & best of all, he was always smiling; all day every day. he had my back the entire time i knew him & i had his. we were there for each other when it mattered. we were so close for 12 or so years, then over time we drifted, just lost contact over time. we still spoke when we saw each other though. we saw each other a couple of weeks back & arranged to have a catch up & everything. i thought maybe we could get back to being close again? but now it can never happen. ive tried to be strong & i still am, but it’s not working very well, i just want you to tell me that everything’s going to be ok & will get better. but i just can’t see how.
on saturday, july sixth twenty-thirteen russell o’neill was taken. taken to early, way to early. at seventeen years of age, russ had his whole life ahead of him. but his life was cut short by a tragic accident which took his life.
russell o’neill; you’re always in my prayers & my heart, forever. god only takes the best. i hope you’re playing football among the stars & looking down on us all. i will never forget you, i promise; never forget all the memories we shared & all the times we had. i’d give anything just to be able to say a proper goodbye to you. & tell you just how much you meant to me. my first goal for a team; college or local will be for you. i’ll point to the heavens & you’ll know it’s for you. i hope i can make you as proud of me as i was of you. you’re my biggest inspiration.
i love you russell o’neill, sleep tight angel.
goodnight angel, sleep tight russ.
rest in peace, bigruss.
december sixteenth nineteen-nintysix // july sixth twenty-thirteen.
MET THE MOST INCREDIBLE MAN YESTERDAY! MADE MY DAY! BLESSED TO HAVE MET HIM! <3
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The prettiest smiles hide the deepest secrets. The prettiest eyes have cried the most tears. And the kindest hearts have felt the most pain.